The Future I Stopped Pretending Not to Want

Woman drawing at a desk in a home studio, with a faint, ghosted image of her younger self in the background.

I thought that, when I retired, stepping away from goals and schedules would bring peace. Instead, I discovered restlessness, distraction, and a loss of meaning. This week I reflect on how I found my way back in 2025—not to obligation, but to making, learning, and respecting my real nature.

December in the laundry room

A black-and-white illustration of a woman standing in a laundry room, holding up a zine with a thoughtful expression as if examining a shirt. A laundry basket in front of her is filled with zines, short stories, and creative papers. Behind her, more artwork and small illustrations hang from a clothesline above a washing machine and dryer.

I’m in the creative laundry room this month, holding up projects like shirts and asking which ones still fit.

The secret power of mini-projects

A hand holding a small illustrated zine titled “How to Catch a Story” in front of a larger unfinished oil pastel portrait of a male paladin in armor.

Sometimes the secret to finishing creative work isn’t more time or more discipline — it’s thinking smaller. Here’s why mini projects have helped me finish more in two months than I did in the last two years.

Sometimes It’s Just a Good Week (and That’s Enough)

Artist smiling while holding up a watercolor flower painting and a landscape sketch in a cozy, art-filled studio

A quiet week of porch-sitting, birdsong, and unexpected studio satisfaction. Zines are blooming, pastels are cooperating, and the dust layer has been vanquished (with a dish rag from the 1980s, no less). Sometimes, it’s good to pause and celebrate the small, quiet victories.

Exciting beginnings: my self-taught art journey, week 1

My first week on a self-taught art journey has been filled with unexpected challenges, inspiring discoveries, and a renewed sense of creative freedom. Join me as I explore foundational skills, face new trials, and uncover what it means to truly learn the art of illustration.